Poetry

Each action a routine
Just the same every day
Repeating its rhythmic footsteps
That have turned to a somber gray

Lost in this static life
Trespassing these ashen storms
Cause each fleeting spark
Is soon gone before it even forms

Is there any way to escape
Out of this lifeless realm
Is there anything else
Besides this silent calm

Show me a little inspiration
A little something to get by
Cause I can't seem to find
A reason why I try

Just something, anything
That will stay long enough
Just long enough to be seen
For it to turn these grays to greens

I awaken in the morning, the rising sun upon my face
And without warning, I disappear to another place
The sweet pine scent arises from the surrounding trees
And I know, this is where I really want to be

I sit in the room, take out my notebook and pencil
And in a quivering flash of a moment, time is still
I'm running and running, past the cabins in the woods
In a game of treasure hunt, if only find me you could

I stare outside, the sun's rays shine upon the leaves
But I know I can return to a place of miracles if I believe
I hear the music's rhythm echo through the cabin's walls
All of a sudden, silence dispells, "C'mon, let's go," a voice calls

I sit in front of my computer, darker and darker the sky turns
And to that one summer day just a year ago I return
I can feel a slight chill as I stand outside on the lawn
Pulling on rubber bands into the center I am drawn

I walk out in the parking lot, open the door of the car
Somehow bringing me back to the place where you are
You smile, and I can feel the fireworks in my heart
Bursting forth unexplainable feelings that only you could impart

I sit on the couch, watch as day turns to night
Close my eyes and I see a different sight
I stand in a room, the music arising within my soul
And I let my voice carry me to whereever I want to go

I lay on my bed, looking up at the sky of stars
And dream of a place where you aren't so far
Lay asleep on a bunk, so perfect everything seems
And for once, I don't even have to dream

I awaken in the morning, the rising sun upon my face
Try and try again, but these memories just won't erase
Tell myself to stop living in these memories long gone
But inside I know, in my heart is where they belong

How could I fall so deep into this abyss of memories
Drowned in this sea of tears shed through the year past
Each day reminding me of what I had chosen to let go
Each moment whispering the memories forgotten a year ago

If only I could forget what my heart refuses to leave behind
If only to the present was not the past entwined
Deeper and deeper in this abyss of memories I fall
Until one day, if only someone hears my call...

When everything's said and done
I look back on the long road
I had a year ago begun

Walk past the quavering leaves
Trembling in fear of the moments
When the future I could not see

Catch a breath of the whispering breeze
Can you feel that? Let the wind take you
And fly you to the skies beyond these trees

Close your eyes and listen closely
Do you hear that? A song my heart
Used to sing if only you'd believe

And I wonder, did I regret a thing
Did I lose the sliver of hope
A different path would bring

As I remember the things I cannot forget
The memories that refuse to leave
Remind me of why I have no more regrets

Looking ahead to a future unknown, I realize
Everything for all its good and bad just might
For once, turn out alright

Sometimes I wonder - can you see
The longing look in my eyes
Hoping for a miracle of what we could be

Listen closely - can you hear
The beating of my heart
Shouting your name loud and clear

Look at me and tell me - can you feel
The indescribable, unexplainable
That words have not ability to reveal

Then again do I need to ask -
If you see anything beyond this mask

For I know all you see
Is the quiet girl in the corner
Insecure and scared to be seen

And all you will ever hear
Is the overwhelming silence
Blinding a heart so sincere

And you shall never feel
The indescribable, unexplainable
For all this ever will be is surreal

And I look once more into those eyes
And ask myself, how can I see so much
In a person who sees nothing in me?

As I walk away - I still wonder
Can you look me in the eyes,
And honestly tell me, you are not, too, wearing a disguise?

A shimmer of your face
Reflecting in the star's light,
A glimmer of your eyes
Sparkling in the eclipse of night.

A song of the heart
Singing its mesmeric melody,
A whisper of the air
Entwining its notes soft and steady.

A ghost of your presence
Leaving its ephemeral trace,
An evanescence of your pull
Falling away through time and space.

A flicker of a moment
Escaping without thought,
Gazing into the amaranthine sky
You're a falling star already caught.

&& for a second I
closed my eyes in regret & fear
sealing my fate once and for all
rereading the letter so sincere
a cold chill rushes through my veins
leaving my heart an icy blue
but finally I have the courage to say
I would have had it no other way.

like a bitter cold winter day
the frozen leaves standing still
and then the sun's orange glow
melts away the winter chill
dawning onto the icy ground
with the warmth of no other
and finally it is safe to say
I would have had it no other way.

our paths were always destined
for the bitter and cold end we know
but I finally realized the beauty
of at last being able to let go
because despite falling too deep
into the icy depths of your heart
with my heart at rest I can finally say
I would have had it no other way.

Those jet black eyes reflect back on mine
Piercing into my soul what's hidden inside
I don't understand, why is it this way
What words are silenced your eyes betray

No words are exchanged between us two
And I wonder why I feel this way about you
Yet something transpires when our eyes meet
Into the window of the soul I delve in deep

There's something about you that pulls me in
Something I cannot define relentlessly beckons
All I see is a mystery shrouded by clouds of gray
But from the road of certainty I walk astray

You're like a captivating melody behind my steps
A memory so mystifying I cannot forget
So alluring and enticing that I cannot hide
Wondering what would happen if our worlds collide

Maybe one day I'll understand the things within
Someday I hope to comprehend where you begin
But for now I'll let the mystery unfold
For in the eyes holds the window of the soul